I Got You Boo!

I have always been considered a very generous person. I look at it this way, if I have it and someone around me needs it, its yours. I'm the type of person that I won't eat in front of people who are not eating. If you're not eating, than I'm either buying you something too or I just won't eat. Or we could even share what I have. It's just a great trait that I happen to have. I'm not the wealthiest person, but I got you boo!
I dream of hitting the lotto one day. Not only to have all the finer things because I'm far from materialistic, but to help all of my family and loved ones out. At some point in my life, everyone around me has been a great help to me. And when I do hit the lotto, I got you boo! 


Lately I have found myself in a chain of unfortunate events with my housing and my finances. It has really been a weight on me but thank God I have family that has been there for me. My brother and sister-in-law has taken my kids and I in their home with no hesitation, my sisters give me money from time to time for gas or just to get by, and my friends have been helping me along the way as well. Before, I would always ask my family for money with no problem. But I think this time I'm very hesitant because it has been so frequent in these last few months. And I know they know my situation but still.

After the Thanksgiving Holiday, I found myself depressed for a couple days to the point where I just laid in bed and cried. I couldn't figure out what it was. I think I was just tired of depending on people and I really  missed having my own place. Now that its Christmas, I kind of got the same feeling. My family has really stepped in and made sure that my kids have a decent Christmas. For that I am very grateful. But I find myself finding it hard to just keep accepting the help like this. It is making me feel like a charity case. My sister-in-law had to force me to accept her offer for dinner tonight. I said no because she has already done enough for me and I don't want her paying for another thing but she insisted. She brought my kids presents and put my name on it so they thought it was from me. Even when I don't have my hand out, someone is always doing something for me. But why can't I just accept it and thank God for his blessings rather than feeling like a charity case or a burden to people?



**My prayer today is Lord bless me so that I may be able to bless others! Help me to receive your blessings humbly.
Through my situation, I have learned to ask the Lord only for what I need and not what I want. When He sees your heart and your intentions, He will bless you. I Got You Boo!